Description: Sirius is not okay. Hasn’t been for awhile but he could usually pretend for awhile while he was at Hogwarts. This last summer though had been his worst and he is spiraling inside himself trying to pretend on the outside. it seems to be working on everyone but Remus.
Characters: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive WarningsSirius Black Remus Lupin James Potter Lily Evans Potter Peter Pettigrew Regulus Black Walburga Black Orion BlackFriends to Lovers Hurt/Comfort Implied/Referenced Child Abuse Child Abuse Eating Disorders Hurt Sirius Black
Sirius is not okay. Hasn’t been for awhile but he could usually pretend for awhile while he was at Hogwarts. This last summer though had been his worst and he is spiraling inside himself trying to pretend on the outside. it seems to be working on everyone but Remus.
so the beginning of this didnt come out as i wanted but i promise as i get more into it, it will get better and i can go back and fix this. Please comment if you read it helps!stay safe guys!
Chapter 1: First night back
¡°What do you think you are doing?!¡±
¡°Hanging around with those mud-bloods.¡±
¡°They¡¯re better than you lot!¡±
I bit my lip to keep myself from screaming, the last thing I was going to do was give them the satisfaction. Still I couldn¡¯t stop the strangled noises from escaping my throat. The echoing of my mother¡¯s laughter ringing in my head as I lost consciousness.
¡°Sirius..¡±A broken sound choked out of Sirius¡¯ throat as he thrashed around.¡°PADFOOT.¡± A voice whispered harshly. Sirius threw himself to a sitting position, his fist colliding with something close to him. Slowing his breathing down, Sirius looked around and saw that he was not in the horror filled walls of Grimmauld Place but in the dormitory at Hogwarts. Safe. The silence was broken by a voice, ¡°OW. Merlin Padfoot that was my face. Are you okay?¡±¡°Yeah fine, shit sorry Moony, shouldn¡¯t sneak up on me like that!¡±¡°You sounded like you were hurt, came to check.¡±¡°Sounds like you were trying to find a reason to get in my bed.¡±Remus looked down and realized he was sitting on his bed and jumped to a standing position awkwardly mumbling out, ¡°just wanted to make sure you were okay.¡±¡°Fine Moony, go back to bed.¡± Sirius said rolling over and staring at the still dark window trying to stay as still as possible until he felt Remus¡¯ presence leave. Remus made a non-committal noise and walked back to his own bed. Sirius awoke to the sounds of the other three noisily getting ready for breakfast, the exciting chatter of their first full day back at Hogwarts. He was exhausted and wanted to stay in the solitude of his bed for longer but he knew he only had minutes before his friends were dragging him out of bed to join them in the Great Hall. He sighed as he got up and quickly plastered a smile on his face that didn¡¯t quite meet his eyes and directed it towards the three mauraders as he put on his robes.¡°So Prongs, is this the year you leave Lily alone finally, or do we have some new quest to win over red?¡± he asked slightly dramatically.¡°Ah Padfoot, this is the year for sure. I can feel it, wait until I tell her all about my summer! I¡¯ve matured. She¡¯ll come to her senses.¡±Everyone laughed and started heading towards the Great Hall, Sirius let his smile fall as he shuffled behind the group, unaware of Remus sneaking a look at him filled with questions and concerns.